when i grow up, i want to be a...

(totally irrelevant to the post so yeah just ignore these haha)

when i was in kindergarten, i wanted to be an actress– i thought it'll be cool y'know, when all your friends see you on tv and bamz you're like the coolest, most popular kid in school.

when i was in primary three, i wanted to be a doctor– saving lives, finding a cure for some illnesses etc.

when i was in primary four, i wanted to be lawyer– bringing justice to the world, putting all those criminals behind bars.

when i was in secondary two, i've gotten my first DSLR, and i thought, i want to be a photographer– capture every single beautiful moment. i enjoyed taking event photos, seeing how much fun everyone was having, i love love love taking pictures of flowers, my dogs and a lot more because sometimes i can capture the things our naked eye misses out.

when i was in secondary three, i wanted to be an accountant– all i could thought of was earning money for my family, i just wanted them to have a better life.

when i was in secondary four, tons of careers came into my mind, i went back to lawyer, making my parents proud by being the first ever lawyer in the family. i wanted to be biologist if i could go to jc. when i've gotten my horrendous O level results, i thought how bout a designer/photographer? if you've read my previous post on posting results, i did get into interactive media design = advertising career in the future. or maybe i could do business and set up a blogshop? and then, i saw this in the JAE booklet, "early childhood studies". at first i was like, "meh, preschool teacher...wait actually ok leh, cute kids, stable career, why not?" i went for JPSAE interview and i guess i was the lucky few who got in. one semester had passed and i realised, a preschool teacher is noble. one wrong teaching method could scar the child for life. it isn't just about rigid teaching like in primary/secondary schools, jc, poly, uni. it's way more than that. a child's mind is so fragile, as a preschool teacher, i would have to be extra careful to what i teach them, or rather, facilitate them when they're learning on their own. 

you must have thought that i wanna be a preschool teacher don't you? nah you're wrong. i want to be more than that. i don't want a degree in early childhood studies. i want a MASTER/PHD IN CHILD PSYCHOLOGY. yes that's right, i want to be a child psychologist, if possible, to become a psychiatrist as well. i want to counsel troubled kids. i want to work with special kids, open a preschool for them. because people, ASIANS ARE FREAKING DISCRIMINATING AND ASHAMED WHEN IT COMES TO SPECIAL KIDS. we aren't as open minded as westerners, we assume these special kids are, pardon me, retarded. we give them no opportunities to be us. we just spoon feed them, treat them way too specially. and the parents? they are even embarrassed to have kids like them, some tried hiding them. (this is what i've learnt in class previously, well sort of). so yeah, i want to be a child psychologist, it'll give me enough knowledge on how i can work with special kids, make a change in asia context, let the society accept these kids and give them equal rights and opportunities. 

so what do you wanna be when you grow up? :-)